Day 32:: Hurting

Soundtrack: "Broken" by Lifehouse

In pain or suffering, I usually either 1. collapse or 2. call my pain/suffering illegitimate (something I should be able to deal with without struggle). David is healthy, because he is honest about his pain and takes it to the right place. He doesn't invalidate his feelings or go completely insane (the two things I feel like I do when I'm in pain). I couldn't believe he was saying all those great things about Saul, though, after all he'd been dealing with the last few years...it astonishes me that after all that suffering he still had something good to say. But I think that's how God works. God wants to honestly know all of our hurt, pain, and suffering with nothing hidden - he wants to hear and understand every facet of of our pain. But he also wants to work in it...he wants to be alive in the pain...he wants us to be changed inside it...he wants to be our redeemer and bring life. David went through HECK, no doubt, but God used that to do a beautiful work in his heart, a heart that is far beyond our understanding and admiration today. We say, "How could he...?" when we should be saying, "Look at what God did!" This shows us clearly how important it is that we go to God in our suffering. We weren't meant to suffer alone. He wants to lighten the load we are carrying; ultimately, He wants to carry it for us.