Day 51:: Giving

"Everything we have is actually only being borrowed from God..." - Solo

Then its not mine to hold onto or be stingy with but its also not mine to waste away carelessly and its certainly not anything I should take credit for.

-but I liked to take credit for our money and what we do with it
-and I am sometimes careless with it
-and sometimes I hold onto it and hoard it

"But who am I...that we should presume to be giving anything to you? Everything comes from You; all we are doing is giving back what we've been given from your generous hand." - David

To me...tonight...this passage has a lot of significance to money, our finances, etc. It is something I am tempted to hoard, waste, or take my own credit for when in actuality, its Yours, God. I am only a channel that you are pouring resources through to reach the world...so when I make it about me or our home and either make selfish choices or begin to think and act independently of You, I am stealing from others what You so generously want to give.

In my mind, I really LIKE the idea of every cent we make in our home being Yours...but in practice, I try to have ownership (an extension of my control issue) and sometimes find satisfaction or fulfillment in it apart from You. I want to grow so that the most satisfying thing in my life is to be giving it all away...and...it IS...when I do it! So maybe I just need to do it...more.