It is scary to let everything move ahead without you in life for awhile (like Jacob did), to take the time to stop and wrestle with God. And its scary to tell God what my heart is struggling with because I know, if I do, in the end, I will lose control and He will have His way with me.
Take control, God. Have your way with me...
Jacob says, "I'm not going anywhere until you bless me," and God says, "What's your name?"
God is reminding Jacob by asking him this that his name means manipulator & schemer. His name perfectly describes his past. "What are you trying to do, Jacob? Manipulate ME?"
Jacob was looking for all God has to offer without having to encounter Him fully or do as He wills. When the wrestling is over, though, Jacob is yearning for more and asks God what His name is. He wants to know Him more. "Who are you?" he is begging.
In the midst of my own wrestling, I cry out to you, God, wanting to know more of you...needing more of you right now, God...
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About Me
- Betsy
- A recovering people-pleasing achiever, I am rediscovering God's grace and clinging to the slow, quiet moments in His love.
I am glad we are blogging this because I understand more after reading your thoughts. I get so distracted by insignificant things (see my post. It's ridiculous.)
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